Day 176

I was not feeling up to walking today but I forced myself up and got ready early. I left the hotel and headed across the street to grab a good breakfast before going out into the desert for the day. After I ate, I walked outside and a little goat was walking around in the parking lot. I played with it and gave it some pringles. He followed me down the road a little bit. 
I was really not into it mentally today. It was beautiful out and some clouds were covering the sun. The wind was blowing pretty hard though. I had to take my flag off and put it inside my stroller. It was blowing right in my face. If any of you who have been reading this blog from the beginning then you know how much I hate the wind. I the wind knows that. It was testing me today. No matter which direction I turned it was blowing right at me. 
It began to pick up and I was getting frustrated. Then the cars started to bother me. Then of course, a big hill came up. All of these obstacles at the same time while in a bad mood was not good. At one point I found myself slamming Lieutenant Dan into a sign repetitively and screaming. 
I pulled myself together. I had to. I talked to myself and was saying that I needed to change my mood. The scenery was beautiful and I’m out here wild and free. I need to shut the heck up and deal with it. So I tried to shake it off and I felt a little better. The wind was still trying to get me but I was telling myself to stay in control. 
A small fresh food stand was on the right and I was going to keep going because I didn’t need anything but I figured it would be a good place to get out of the wind for a second and get my head back in order. I was rewarded greatly by the decision. 
I went in and ordered some iced tea. It was incredible. The owner, Randy, asked me what was the big thing that I’ve learned so far on my walk. Great question. It started an hour long conversation about learning and growing. I mean some quality in depth spiritual conversation. One of those meant to be there kind of things. 
I was so happy that I met Randy. He gave me a paper sack full of fresh eggs, a loaf of bread, some pesto, and some amazing cheese. All made organically on his property. I walked away and my mood was completely turned around. He helped me pinpoint some of the thoughts and feelings that I had been dealing with lately. 
I was getting tired and the wind was still blowing hard but i at least had my positive spirit back. I lost it about 5 days ago and had been in a funk. I was very grateful to have gotten a hold of things. I thanked the wind for helping me get to the point I needed to get to to take all of this in. Early evening was here and a saw a hotel coming up. I couldn’t believe there was a hotel out here. 
I walked in just to see what the rate was. $115. Nope. I looked at my map and a campground was 4 miles away. I could make it. I didn’t want to but I know that I could. The guy saw my stuff and asked about it. He offered a pretty good discount and convinced me to stay. I really wanted to have 4 walls and a bed tonight. I have my spirits back up and wanted to keep it that way. 
I checked in and then broke into the food that Randy gave me. Wow. So so so good!!!
 I was in a very low place for a few days. Everything was getting to me. I am so thankful that I got back to the right state of mind. Now I can take in the beautiful universe and enjoy this experience again. I’m now looking forward to tomorrow instead of dreading it…